Friday, May 27, 2011

Lonely, but never alone

One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it.
“Lord, You said that once I decided to follow you, You’d walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don’t understand why when I needed you most you would leave me.”
The Lord replied, “My son, My precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.”
- Author Unknown



"I feel like I too am being carried by my Lord through my transitioning period, I miss my family. He is holding me tight and carrying me. His spirit is crying for me. He hates to see me so sad. I am trying so hard to break free from my sadness, it's hard. Although, I look alright on the outside, I feel heartbroken and alone. My human spirit is crying out. I run to my God for help. I have asked for his angels to completely surround me, guide me and protect me. I feel his warmth and love. So while I am trying so hard to come back, I am weak, I can't come out of it alone. The Lord is carrying me."~Jeannie






LEE CARR - Rain lyrics 

You ever felt like, it's just raining
but it's only raining on you?

Have you ever woke up and felt like you didn't wanna live today?
And have you ever felt like the person you used to be has gone away?
If you feel like you're running and there's nowhere for you to hide
With the world on your shoulder, you hope that it gets better with time

It's like when it rains and it all falls down on your pillow
It's like when it rains and there's nobody there to turn to
It's like when it rains and you can't get out of it
It's like when it rains and you don't know where it will end
It's like when it rains
It's like when it rains
It's like when it rains

Have you ever looked in the mirror and didn't recognize your own face?
The days don't seem to get any clearer, you wish you could just fade away
I know what it feels like, when there's no one for you call
With the world on your shoulder, you hope that it gets better with time

It's like when it rains and it all falls down on your pillow
It's like when it rains and there's nobody there to turn to
It's like when it rains and you can't get out of it
It's like when it rains and you don't know where it will end
It's like when it rains
It's like when it rains
It's like when it rains

So don't run away from grey winds falling,
Open your eyes and realize it's only temporary,
It's gonna be ok

It's like when it rains and it all falls down on your pillow
It's like when it rains and there's nobody there to turn to
It's like when it rains and you can't get out of it
It's like when it rains and you don't know where it will end
It's like when it rains
It's like when it rains
It's like when it rains 


1 comment:

  1. Jeannie, I hear ya. I am struggling with similar emotions myself. I have been off of work for 13 weeks tranistioning to life with our little Joshua. We have been hoping and praying for a new job for my husband so I would not have to return to work but the job has not come and so I return on Wednesday to a job (& people) I don't like. I am heart broken, frustrated, devastated and depressed and it stinks!
    Just wanted to let you know that you're not alone.

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